Conflicted Feelings

I just have these conflicted feelings
about this whole graduating business.

One one hand,
it's exciting and exhilarating.
And I just can't seem to wait
until I walk across that stage
and get handed that diploma.

My whole life
has been leading up
to this moment.

But then
this fear creeps up
and binds me down.
This fear that nothing will work out
and that I'm going nowhere.

My feelings are flip-flopping inside me.

And there's so much to think about
from the shoes to my hair to the dress.
And this pressure to look perfect
coming from society, my parents,
and, most importantly,
myself.

And I just want to have fun,
and live out my life.

I just have all these conflicting feelings
about this graduating business.